this sily thing called Love :)

Monday, June 21, 2010 6:11 PM

Jessie James - Inevitable (:

you're in love with me and you just dont know it yet .

everyone sees it but you wont admit it .

i know that she's beautiful but let me tell you that

our love is inevitable.

wee , i so love this song .

4:29 PM

illusion never change into something real .

im wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torned .

Labels: natalie imbruglia - torn (:

2:07 PM

good afternoon earthlings .

wee , im bored . yes , whats new about me ?

nothing . just bored bored and totaally bored .

teehee , im not gg out todayy . yes , no plans made .

ohh , wake up earlyy in the morning and my body was aching .

yes , due to netball yesterday .

idontknow what to blogg about actually .

so yeahh .

imissyou b . im terribly missing you .

yes , i know . youre busy with your stuff and plans .

i wont say a thing at all .

its your life , i dont want to interfere .

yes , okay .

if you have plans to go out with me , tell me .

you know , its been a while since we go out together .

well , okayy .

i just hope things wont change .

alright , im done here .

will blogg again , later (:

byee earthlings .

iloveyoumuhdfaizal!

12:43 AM

ohh , today is the 21st .

its my beloved friend Siti Suhada's Legal Birthday (:

weee , okayy ! happy eighteenth birthday sweetheart .

okayy , im boreed still . im listening to random songs you know .

hehs , okay . b , is not back yet .

ohh yeahh , i miss him totally .

you leave me powerless mann .

haha . ive never missed someone else this much .

im telling you , you are special .

really . there's nothing to doubt .

there's nothing to clarify .

you are the only guy that i love and will love .

believe me ?

i want to have you forever .

i know , i might sound greedy . but heyy , i want you .

thats final .

Sunday, June 20, 2010 10:51 PM

yes , enough of emo-ing .

lets just for once , talk about something exciting .

okay . tommorow no plans .

and on tuesday , it's my Nursing Year 1Cohort outing .

outing to Clarke Quay at 1pm .

im not going . im sorry dudes and dudettes .

you all have fun okayy ? yes , we'll just meet in campus ayee .

wednesday , no plans .

thursday , netball at 9am to 12pm .

friday , netball at 1300 to 15oohrs .

my life is boring i know , but what to do ?

i just wish my life was happening like the others .

hee , congrats Fityan Assyakirin !

wee , we made it to the finals .

hee , im so the very happy .

goshh , yes . i need to control my anger .

heh , i guess me sprinting my ankle is enough .

haha . and my hand , its painful .

(: overall , you girls were great okayy .

next year , MY-SPEX .

who is up for it ?

heehee .

yes , ohh well . i went back at around 4plus from kallang .

took mrt at Mountbatten -circle line .

and then changed at Serangoon - north east line .

took train to Sengkang . yes , i admit .

my ankle is hurt , real bad .

heheh , reached home at around 5.30 ?

ohh and then went to sleep .

and now , im awakee !

ohh , b . went to follow his daddy to work .

so yeaa .

and now , i dont know what to do .

im bored !

yes , veryyy .

i dont know what time im gg to bed .

probably i'll wait up for b .

ohhkayy , i love my b alot !

byeeeee .

10:48 PM

ive had enough .

abah , im sorry . ive think it through .

im still with my decision .

yes , no matter what .

youre still my dad .

but , i just .

idontknow .

and now , im dying inside .

are you happy now ?

thankyou very much .

iloveyou dad , ohh .

happy father's day .

8:57 PM

the fact that im deeply hurt inside cant be hide any longer .

what more can i do ?

how i should i go about doing it ?

yes , there seems to be no point for me to tell you the truth when you still think that i lied .

idontknow , you know ?

im just going to sit and look .

i cant be bothered to say anything .

yes , i do respect you as my dad but i definitely need to earn some respect from you .

to be respected , you need to learn how to respect others first .

b , i need you the most right now . if you are reading this ,

i just want you to knoe that im losing this fight and i badly need you .

thanks , iloveyou b .

Saturday, June 19, 2010 8:15 PM

some things's are meant to be kept that way ♥

there's a reason to everything .

why this , why that .

well , its up to a certain individual to analyse .

well , in my case . i dont know .

maybe , my family is like this .

is unlikely to be that way .

well , what to do .

nothing can be done .

i can only pray to god that everything is going to be okay .

amin (:

8:05 PM

HELLO ♥

im bored . very bored .

goshh , i cant wait for tmrw .

yesaa , i need to really buck up on my skills in shooting you know .

tee-hee . i dont want to let my girls downn .

especially InaaSC .

hee , okayy . bby boy is in JB .

and so , no one for me to text .

ohh , i went to my cousin's engagement ceremony just now .

yes , met all my cousins but we dont really talk .

cause its from my father's side and yeahh .

we rarely meet . and only on certain occasions .

gosh , everybody was like when is it my turn to get engaged .

EH HELLO ! IM STILL 17 YOU KNOW (:

haha . and ohh , i met my newly-found cousin .

his name is Fahmy . and he's 17 too .

he's in SP . yes , i dont know doing what course but yeah .

we talked alot as he seems to be friendly than the others .

he told me that my auntie wants him to be engaged by next year .

godd !

yes , i know . thats way TOO EARLY .

well , parents nowadays .

weird but true .

okayy , im just so happy to have mummy and abah as my parents .

yes , eventh they nag and stuff .

i know its for my own good .

i cant do this , i cant do that .

well yeah , its normal .

hee , so yeahh .

for me , engagement and wedding is so not the topic for me to talk about now .

5 years or 6 years more , yes maybe (:

insyallah , amin♥

2:19 PM

i♥you.

those three words has been coming out in fb , blog , tagged .

yes , the truth is .

i♥you.

and if can i wanna tell the whole entire world that im the most luckiest girl

living on this planet .

you are just the most sweetest thing ever .

weeee , i wanna be with you forever .

i swear in the name of ♥

12:51 PM

I just want to be the girl you talk about.

The only one, you couldnt live without.

To be the one, who makes your heartbeat crazy.

And for you to say to your boys, “SHE’S MY BABY”.

iloveyou so so so much .

can i be with you forever syg ?

pleaseeeee , i pinky promise you that

i wont ever stop loving you not even a second in my lifetime .

bhy , i love you . i love you .

once again ;

i love you muhd faizal (:

10:13 AM

and yes , the picts taken yesterday (:

mind the faces . hee , thanks !

well , gtg .

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

9:49 AM

good morning dearlies !

weee , yeahh .

todayy im gg for a wedding invitation at Bedok South .

okayy , yessterdayy . i met up with bby boo at 6pm .

geesh , yess . bby boo was tired after work and soo we didnt go out of sengkang .

and yes , we hang at our usual spot . the anchorvale park .

yes , i was really happy as i get to spend time with bby .

yes eventh its like for a while but still i get to meet him .

hee , and i talked alot as usual . and bby made his funny faces .

gosh , bby looked hot with his singlets and shorts .

haha . b , b (:

and yeahh , took 3 picts . yes i know its pathetic . but our faces looked more pathetic .

haha . anyways , i love it when bby lend his shoulders to me .

and yes , i love the smell of his armpits . so ?

haha . and so , we talked and talked .

and then i told bby about this particular GIRL .

she likes bby . and then i told bby the whole story .

yes , i admit i was jealous .

goshh , i looked and act so weird when im jealous .

yes , i was silent for th moment .

but bby tried so hard to break that silent away by cuddling me .

and bby asked me to smile .

yes , i can smile . and jyeah , Jealousy is the worst thing ever .

i swear i dont want to show my jealousy face to face to bby again .

i dont want to make bby feel guilty or hurt .

it's not my bby's fault .

iloveyou bby . and the main reason why i was jealous its because i love you too much and i cant imagine how am i going to continue with life without you . well im not going to make this sound so tragic you know . haa (:

well , headed home after everything .

and yeahh , went to follow mummy to buy some things at NTUC .

yes , i admit i was tired plus my FLU .

omg , the moment i reached home .

i ate abit and then took my medication.

i swear the medication took sucha long time to work on me .

i didnt fell asleep just yet .

i msged with bby halway thru and then i went to bed without telling bby .

im sorry .

hee , okayy . goshh !

im so excited for my match tomorrow , you know ?

haha . im playing for Assyakirin .

yes , and my cousin will be in my team too .

yes , double-YAYNESS !

wee ohh wee (:

yes , meeting cousin at 6.3oam at tampines .

and thenn meeting the rest of the girls at Paya Lebar Platform at 7am .

and then we'll be heading to KALLANG. haha .

okayy . i think ive haad enough of blogging .

hee (:

im going to continue with my sleep . yes !

haah .

okayy ,takecare dearies .

muchh lovee (;

iloveyoumydearestbbyboy !

Friday, June 18, 2010 2:50 AM

goodnight earthlings (:

hee , well yeahh . so muchh things are on my mind right now .

you know ?

and i dont wish to say it out here .

i dont wanna make it sound sooo tragic .

and i believe i still got MAGIC .

eh heh . yes , whats life without problem .

right ?

so , stop complaining bayyzuraa !

ceyhh . haahaa (:

wee , okayy go . im tired , but th thing is .

i cant sleep .

SLEEPLESS NIGHT .

hoho .

okayy , i texted bby .

me : b , are you asleep ?

b : not yet , why b ?

me : nehh , i just did a post for you at fb and blogg . haha , u calling me still ?

b : yeahh , but after this cartoon kayy ? (:

me : haha , okayy . cute laa you , watch cartoon !

haha . my bbby , is cute (:

okayy . hahah .

2:33 AM

yay ! 50th post (:

okay , im officially missing you boy .

do you know ? i dont know .

i miss you like crazyy .

yes , im really hoping that we can meet later on .

praying hard . yes , i am .

i'll repeat it once more ;

im officially missing you boy .

im officially missing you , muhd faizal (:

2:24 AM

okayy , lets talk about today . ohh , yesterday (:

geesh , i went for my sponsorship interview at Bukit Merah , Connection One Tower 5 .

okayy , official waiting time ;

3hours.

haha . yes i know . its pathetic .

very PATHETIC .

but still , i waited patiently .

eh , im not that patient type of person you know ?

heh , ohh .

and the one who interviewed me was a Matron .

i could feel butterflies in my stomach .

goshh , i was nervous like hell .

my palms were sweating .

okay shh , dont tell people laa okay ? (:

hehe . uhh , yeahh .

questions asked ;

Tell me more about yourself ?
Why did you choose nursing as your career ?
Who motivates you ?
Why you choose SGH ?
Why you think SGH should sponsor you ?
What are your goals in life ?

hehs , yes . i know . and im proud of myself for being brave to turn up for the interview . hopefully , i will be shortlisted .

so , after Nitec In Nursing in dec 2011 .

SGH , here i come (: haha .

as an Enrolled Nurse . weeeeeeeee !

2:15 AM

i wish i was talented .

i can sing but i wanna know how to play the guitar or the piano .

hee , okay random (:

now chatting with Haiqal , Adek , Natasha .

and im blogging and im fb-ing and im you-tubing (:

so much of multi-tasking eh . haha .

b will call me back later . i think .

ohh and tmrw , my plan that ive planned .

not going to be carried out as b needs to work .

okay , i cant say a thing .

maybe meeting him at around 5 ?

idontknow .

ohh , i received an fb msg from Nashrul's mom .

gawshh , Nashrul has not been home .

where on earth could he be now ?

haiyoo , Nash . if youre reading this post , text me up you know .

im worried about you . yes , im worried sick !

pleasee dont get yourself into trouble out there and some more youre taking your N's soon .

haiyoo , please laa okay ?

ohh , im bored now . really , VERY bored !

someone , entertain me cann ? (:

Wednesday, June 16, 2010 9:57 PM

TODAY

Hello Earthlings.

Ohh yes , Happy Seventeenth Birthday To my dearest beloved bestfriend;

Aila Supernova(:

Ive known you for like . idontknow , uhh since i was like in pri 3 ?

hee , youre like my sister and i enjoy every moment with you .

yes , we've been thru netball trainings together and all .

its funn you know , and now that we're bestfriends .

I LIKE !

May you'll be blessed with all the kindness in this world and ohh ,

last long with your boyf !

Iloveyou Ailaa !

hee , and ohh .

Happy Twenty-Fourth Birthday To my dearest friend in NYP;

Kak Farlinn(:

Hee , thanks for the info that youve shared with me during my posting .

It's funn getting to know stuffs and talk to you about my life .

yess , eventh its for a short while , imma remember evrything okayy ?

and you , take good care of your baby .

it's 6monthsplus old in your tummy .

weeee , loveyou kakak !

hee , so much of birthdays here and there .

and mine ? let me see .

4 more months ?

haa . long wayy to go .

yes . and tmr is the 17th of June 2010 .

that marks my 1st year anniversarry of friendship with my friend of course!

his name is Danial .

hee , okayy . we've know each other thru my BestBabe , Nadiah Arinahh .

yes , thank you babe (:

hee , oh well . may our friendship last longg okay dann ?

and i wish you good luck with your studies in RP now and ohh , cepat laa dapat Girlfriend (:

hahah ! okayyy , now its time for me to talk about TODAY .

haha . ohhkayy .

i had Netball Training in school just now from 12 till 2pm .

fun yet pressurising .

i felt like i was going to breakdown and cry you know .

coach pressured me , but i know its for my own good .

and after i scored the last goal .

i felt a sign of relieved .

hee , like FINALLY .

my stamina is yet to be build again and i so have to buck up on my shooting skills .

yes , i know that people .

imma improve ! yes , i have to (:

okayy , bbby boy .

imissyou like so muchh you know .

its killing me bit by bit .

ceyhh . haha .

yes i know you miss me too .

and yeahh , i cant wait to meet you on friday .

yes . we HAVE to meet .

hee . iloveyou sayang (:

12:34 AM

hell-oo !
yes , i know .
what am i doing now?
video-calling with bby boy (:
yees , i know . at one time , the webby was jam and ohh my god .
bby , you looked sexy ! haa , okayy shh (:
tmrw , i'll be gg for netball from 12 to 2pm at school .
yes , i know . i cant wait !
hehs , okayy !
blogg again later ? (:

Tuesday, June 15, 2010 4:25 PM

go away can ?
please laa , im begging you .
stop bugging me to have a session with you .
anyway , whats there to talk about ?
yes , i know . ive changed . so what ?
im not the old byzura . yes , i admit .
so ? this is me , my life . and i decide what i want to do .
well , get it ? PEOPLE CHANGE .
and ive changed drastically .
so ?

12:25 PM

yes i know . thats him . he's the guy who makes me smile with his jokes , text msges , sillyy face and everything . ive shed tears for him , but that doesnt matter . i love him alot and i know its not a smooth sailing journey for this relationship . and i have to take one step at a time . hell yeah . gosh , i cant explain whats in my heart right now . i love him with all my heart .
hee . okayy , im done here .

i love you muhd faizal , and youre my only exception .
i swear with all my heart and life , youre the one that i wanna live with till the end of the world . yes , i know that wish is really a big wish but im sure of what i want and im very sure that if god is willing to grant me that wish . imma be the luckiest girl to be on this planet , Earth . and i wont take you for granted , i love you for the way you are . and that would never change . yes , i know . imma small girl with big dreams , and trust me i would take the whole world in my hand and go thru every obstacles to be with you . imma make my dream come true (: