a note for myself ;
1. I have to change my attitude . (but i dont know how)
2. I have to give space for the people around me . (especially my boyf)
3. I have to understand that i cannot always get anything that i want .
dear boyf ,
i know . i keep on repeating the same mistakes . saying sorry but i never change .
you told me before . and you know what , ever since you texted me saying
"you keep on saying sorry but you never change ."
that really opened up my eye .
i admit it hurts . but what you said is true .
i will try my very best to improve and change .
but still , im a human being still .
im not perfect and i will never be .
but i know , the least i could do is to try .
i know .
im soft hearted .
i cry most of the time .
for all the simplest and the smallest thing that could happen .
i break down almost everytime when i could not take it anymore .
i want you to know that .
i never told you that straight to you .
because i dont have the guts .
i know , you hate it when i lie .
you hate it when i say "nothing"
but , i keep on doing that .
i dont know what i can do .
im sorry , boyfriend .
and about today , im sorry if ive spoil your mood .
i didnt mean to .
i love you .